I feel bad probably because they didn't like that I showed physical anger in private in proximity to something to do with an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with.  It's gone on for more than 2 months and once I felt better they just must have gradually made it worse.  This is bad for my self esteem.  This is trash how I'm treated.  They made silly rules just for me, like not physical release of anger, though if I had a punching bag that would be an excuse.  I have a sofa.