I simply want to talk about some things but felt safe deleting some..

They said maybe I have to associate with someone how is bad.

Supposedly, an older lady I'm supposed to have a "relationship" with is feeling pleasure from someone and cut me off, like I did something.

They said she felt so good she couldn't face me.

They're going crazy.  They won't stop ruining it for me!

They said an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is always ruined.

They said I always do something with someone else.

Someone supposedly ruined an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with and they are adding more problems.

They are mean to me if I think of curse words.

The people monitoring me in private act condescending and get away with it in a silly way.

They act like I answer to them all throughout the day.

It seems like they are just wasting my time now, in ways.

I was told I did something to lose something.

Why do the people monitoring me in private saying an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is canceling our "relationship" after she got more famous than me?

These people act so stupid to me it's what I can't stand!

The people monitoring me in private just want to feel cool saying something mean, to me.

An older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with keeps seeming to have to cancel our relationship or be really insulting, via messages from others.  It may just be the ^sad^ organization of the people monitoring me in private uttering whatever makes them feel good in bad ways.

They supposedly believe they can ruin an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with because I showed physical anger in private in proximity of something to do with her.

It drains my energy every time I load the page because of how the people monitoring me in private time it to startle me with some message somehow.

I keep having to adjust myself even physically at the onset of these attentions.

So, wake up, they are testy to me, and then fart the rest of the day away with concerning me after that.

I feel bad probably because they didn't like that I showed physical anger in private in proximity to something to do with an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with.  It's gone on for more than 2 months and once I felt better they just must have gradually made it worse.  This is bad for my self esteem.  This is trash how I'm treated.  They made silly rules just for me, like not physical release of anger, though if I had a punching bag that would be an excuse.  I have a sofa.

I don't feel like doing anything, like I am exposed, vulnerable, at risk, probably already tired, annoyed, like I want a bath sometime, like I have things to do that I can't do now.

I really don't feel too well.  I wonder why.  It might be all these negative messages to do with an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.  Maybe, her fundamentals are penetrated, but maybe that just has to do with less for me ... and other things.  In general, I just feel shocked and overwhelmed about nothing but tossing these negative implications, and it's work.  I said it wasn't okay to distract me, like Ellen DeGeneres did, supposedly, putting these noises in my room to distract me (ticks in the garage etc.) and the people monitoring me in private controlling how the page loads to send a negative message, which seems like almost all the time now.  I get messages that will supposedly be fixed, too.  I'm having problems, though, in this involvement.  I can't write it all down.