Someone is mad at anything I text and trying to control my life.
Monday, April 26, 2021
It is incorrect to say my experience with an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with was problematic on the get go. She fed off things in my past that seemed less than perfect, like hitting my wall when angry, and so I guess it led her to cancel it maybe or at least that's what the people monitoring me in private good off about and seemed to say for awhile.
Silly reasons come up, like I showed physical signs of being upset in a proximity of something to do with her, and I forget what else I was going to say. Oh, yes, that it seems awkward I verbalized this.
This is all suppositional, but she could claim it's true or at least the people monitoring me in private speaking for her.
They just act non-responsive like ... I forget.
For some reason, I feel I got the message an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with backed out! like because I showed physical anger in private in proximity of something to do with her but I was in private. They act like I'm terrible and they're the ones who have it under control, but they keep messing with me for that.
Sunday, April 25, 2021
What's that?
Your false hope that an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with doesn't "have" to interact with me at all?
Saturday, April 24, 2021
Just because I accidentally appeared upset in certain way to the people monitoring me in private, they wanted to be safe and ruined it for me.
They had had an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with be inappropriately and permanently affected by a man a little older, so it would ruin my relationship as a punishment by a lady a little older.
They showed something to represent a vein flickering after they mentioned someone to affect me in a way I did not like. When they do things like this, I feel pressure from them that does not leave.
They also gloried in saying the older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with wasn't as connected to me in something permanently seeming. They were goofing around like they didn't do anything bad, but it still popped up, for example.
Friday, April 23, 2021
(continued)
Ah, yes, waste time and unnecessarily make it worse for me.
It's like a little kid asking you a bunch of stupid questions all the time.
Thursday, April 22, 2021
I guess...
Someone still stands by that she had to exploit an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with just so she can have control over it in the world.
She also thinks I'm bad or did something bad.
Wednesday, April 21, 2021
These people involved monitoring me in private "are up to no good."
If I show physical anger in private, they punish me. It gets worse, but it was supposed to be more flexible. They are also superstitious if I do something or think something they don't like, if anything is happening around it to punish. I'm not really bad, they set me up to feel that way.
Tuesday, April 20, 2021
I have seen Ellen DeGeneres on TV, and she seems fine. Still, I keep getting messages that she wants to keep me from having a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older lady. In particular, she doesn't want me to feel that stimulated, and the people involved monitoring me in private also messed with how I'm stimulated.
Sunday, April 18, 2021
My aunt seems to have a grudge on me. Sometimes, I think she made a lot of money or has a lot with her husband, and sometimes I don't. She "bends over backwards" to help others and treats them with respect. She seemed to say in a way that said I was shit she wasn't paying for something for me that wasn't supposedly ridiculous in what she said. I don't like the "tone" in what she e-mailed. It's like I'm stupid. My parents both died, and I'm moving to a group home. She also wasn't very friendly in my dad's final days, like I did something wrong. She's also been used via people monitoring me in private in ways that's ruined my life and my "relationship" I'm supposed supposed to have with an older lady.
The people involved monitoring me in private got mad at me for words that came to my head regarding what someone important thought about an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.
They brought up a touchy topic.
A car assumed it was over and said she has a lot to look forward to in life without me / now.